Tuesday, February 27, 2007
i'm so very sad
yet, i feel that i rather turn in to a non-living thing.
just typing,
theres no need for reply
no need for ears.
i did not know i failed so bad
just by being a girlfriend.
it hurts
when everything you did to someone is nothing
he doesnt feel it
i'm sorry.
what i say was just how i feel
but i din't realise it hurt you.
i'm sorry.
to me,
it diff,
you and him.
i hope by not making the same mistake would bring us further
i thought i've made every effort i could.
it was not enff,
i dont deserve so much from you
i'm sorry
when you searched the whole world
just to find someone you need.
you just realise
you're all you need.
at least for now,
not that there is no one for me
it just that you're not here.
i really hope,
you could have talked to me in a clear state of mind
instead of this.
you need to fall really bad
to learn i suppose.
i fell,
i want to amend everything.
but it doesnt seems that way to you
ya,
its very unfair to you
i totally agree.
it's my fault
mayb im not just that ready for another r/s
than i thot i was.
i'm sorry.
i hope you can lead a better life.
no more tears,
no more sadness,
no more drowning yourself.
i wont cry anymore,
i will try very very hard,
i want to fufil a promise i made
for so many tyms to you.
at least thats what i could do.
at least.
takecare =)
hearts, STEPH
2:32 AM
Monday, February 12, 2007
=)
being a real goody sister
i bought 2 yellow highlighter for my bro.
i'm so proud of myself,
its been long since i really rmb sth for someone else
feel so bad for my boy
poor thing,
i always 4gt things.
i'll try to improve on my lil brain
ohyea
finally i balancED a b/s
WOOOOO~
hur hur
aft doin so many tyms --"
im bound to screw up in the halls i'm sure.
you can't lose what you never really had.
hearts, STEPH
2:25 PM
Sunday, February 11, 2007
save me
nono,
i'm not emo
I NEED MOTIVATION.
great,
its either im over stress
or NOT STRESS AT ALL
im lke havin all the tym in de world
slaps myself*
anyway,
abt my prev entry
its sth my sis told me.
she said her fren once told her
Before you get married,
you're SOMEBODY's daughter
when you married
you're SOMEBODY's wife
the period of working towards yr goal and attaining it
you are yrself.
in the middle of sombody's daughter and somebody's wife
u're you =)
she said goal will find it ways to me
maybe when i start working
i can tell she love her job.
right,
wheres the goal for me?
i don't know.
someday it might come to me
before i become under another somebody's
hearts, STEPH
9:48 PM
life's good =)
yea,
been super long since i updated.
well well.
life been so far so good
other than the stupid exam stresses and no time for (frenshoppingmoviesyou)
cries!
maec today was okay.
hope can do well ba~~
hmm.
not gona to live in someone's else shadow
gona live for who i am
look for my ultimate goal in life
=)
hearts, STEPH
12:34 AM
life's good =)
yea,
been super long since i updated.
well well.
life been so far so good
other than the stupid exam stresses and no time for (frenshoppingmoviesyou)
cries!
maec today was okay.
hope can do well ba~~
hmm.
not gona to live in someone's else shadow
gona live for who i am
look for my ultimate goal in life
=)
hearts, STEPH
12:34 AM
Friday, February 02, 2007
URGH. #%$#@^$%&^#%&$^
i'm so pekchek,
AND I DONT KNOW WHY?
i'm NOT interested in studyin money that chpt
my heads alil screwed up with pain
i'm very screwed up with econs
why why why?
whats wrong this time?
I DONT KNOW!
what happen?
I DONT KNOW!
why do this always happen,
nothing is wrong we just don't talk
yea.
unhappy over i dont know what
i want to
SCREAM MY HEAD OFF
PULL MY HAIR
BANG THE WALL
give me a break.
hearts, STEPH
6:12 PM
